Hello again! How were the holidays for you? Busy as usual for me. I always feel a bit guilty in January that I sigh with relief when routines have started again. I’m not crazy about routines, it’s the regular, steady pace that I crave: a predictable schedule where I can find time to just be.
Before Christmas husband and I started a great fitness habit of rising early and getting some exercise in at the start of the day and I look forward to getting back into that. Not that I’m a gung-ho fitness freak, I just felt better when I did a bit of cardio and a bit of weights most days. Feeding my brain more oxygen did good things to my mood and my creativity.
I also blogged more regularly (well, I blogged) when I had the routine, and you’ve missed these posts, right? Nudge. Well I’ve missed interacting with you both here and on your blogs.
And anyway, I have good plans for this year and for my work (like my expat eBook). I haven’t made resolutions, I’ve just made decisions (lables, labels, labels)–this year I shall prioritise my writing. I started by not renewing a contract I was working on. I enjoyed the work, the pay was good, but at some point if I am ever going to get anything published I need to prioritise my work as I have other people’s. I need to just take a deep breath and jump right in. So…
It’s a bit scary.
But in a water-plume-on-a-hot-day-at-a-theme-park way.
There’ve been a lot of inspiring blog posts and quotes on Facebook encouraging people to be kick ass in 2013, which is great!
Regular readers of this blog will know how I have a weakness for clever quotes. Maybe it’s just that I like language arranged nicely. Whatever it is, certain mixes of words really grab me and sometimes I share, sometimes I just sit and think about it a while. These are quotes that inspire me to push myself, or to be daring, or to think differently about something. They’ve been getting me fired up to do Great Things this year (the be ‘kick ass’). One of my favourites is:
You don’t get what you want, you get what you work for.
But you know what? Here’s a confession: As much as I love the yee-haw, and as much as I know Focus and Determination are the Keys to Success, and as much as I love the idea of being a bit kick ass, sometimes I just get so exhausted by it all. And by the whole inspirational, go get ‘em, work-hard-play-hard, be-the-best-you-can-be culture. Sometimes I just want to sit still and not feel bad about that.
My daughter received a lava lamp for Christmas and one afternoon I found myself sitting and staring at it, watching the blobs of lava separate and rise and rejoin and settle and rise again…and I was so lost in watching it that 20 minutes had passed before I even thought to look at my watch. And I loved that feeling. It was like drinking cool water on a hot, dry day.
You only get one life. Live it.
There’s a quote that makes my shoulders tighten with anxiety when I read it if I’m in this sort of mood. Am I living it, or is it passing me by? Am I living well enough, am I doing enough to justify a satisfied smile at the end of the day? Am I taking good enough care of myself, am I taking good enough care of my family? Am I siezing the day tight enough? Ad infinitum…
But I’m old enough now to know that part of living is just being. Taking a deep breath and then another and pausing to look around me, and just enjoy this moment for whatever it is. And being able to enjoy the moment–by watching a lava lamp, or just sitting with a cup of tea and holding still for a few minutes is one of the things I work for (see the first quote; see also this post if you want to know more on that: Why multitasking is bad).
So although I’m going to keep getting up at 6am to exercise (yes really), and although I’m going to go for it and push myself and work hard on my writing projects and be as kick ass as I can be, I’m also going to take it easy. That’s another decision, not a resolution.
What about you? Any decisions you’ve come to lately?